肯为 - My words & thoughts..

Work is...

2011-12-07T06:13:00.000-08:00

Problematic...

through all these ordeals, I realized that our state police officers are really disappointing our taxpayer's money...

Last Quarter of 2011

2011-10-01T19:32:00.000-07:00

8 weeks since my last post.. and these 8 weeks had been very time-fulfilling (although it is stressful)..

Firstly, my 5th ICT that was held on the 5th Sept to 10th Sept had concluded and the department that I was in-charge of was accessed with B+, the second best band after A. In that ICT, my deputy was not around and I have to settle everything with my stand-in deputy. On top of that, I've make it sure that I would like to start from scratch again to guide everyone in my department to know what is going on during work proper. It's not easy. But I had already tried my best. Although we are accessed with the B+ banding, I always feel that we are still not up to the standard. There is still more room for improvement.

Secondly, I had been assigned the overall project lead for a portion of the SGP F1 Assignment. That was challenging. It was because it was a straight plunge into the assignment after my ICT. No time to catch a breather, no time to take a break. Luckily, I have the assistance from my colleagues that supported me throughout the 3 days of F1. And because of this opportunity that was given to me by my boss, my hardwork was appreciated by my Group General Manager and Managing Director. Nevertheless, I felt happy despite the late hours I spent as I got to know many new friends and faces who are working in the Singapore Tourism Board, Land Transport Authority as well as the Singapore Grand Prix Committee. The 3 days spent in Pan Pacific were awesome with these group of people. Never to mention that we popped champagne in the ballroom at the very last day of work!!!

Thirdly, soon after my assignment with F1, I was called upon my HR to announce that my probation period with the company is over and I will be getting my $$$ soon. Alright.. at least some monetary reward I can look into. =)

Lastly, I bought a new motorcycle. A motorcycle I have been looking for these few weeks after getting my Class 2A license. It is a 10 years old Honda Steed with original spray and design. The body is nicely chrome up and I have decided to ride this motorcycle without the box. Thus I trade aesthetic with convenience but I am looking for a suitable leather side bag to attach to my motorcycle such that it can put at least a helmet on 1 side and accessories on the other side.. Vroom Vroom..

So much for this post, not forgetting that the economy is quite bleak as the big brother in the west and Europe are all facing job issues and debt crisis. I do hope that our red dot has some preventive measure that can block out most of the crisis wave.

So much for the updates.. Stay Tune...

Double Victory within 48 hours

2011-08-19T20:15:00.001-07:00

Yes.. I did it...

I've attained my Class 2A (201 - 400cc) Riding License despite 16 points deducted during the Traffic Police test. Most of my mistakes were from the General Riding section. I got to admit that the challenges are there for Class 2A as there were many cars around and the cars will not give way to Class 2A testees as it is a common mindset that Class 2A testees are considered experience in riding and have road experience. During the test, there were some hiccups and anxiety but all were overcome when I keep telling myself "Don't rush... Do it once, Do it good". Thanks to my constant "psycho-ing" that I managed to do my best and attained my third license.

Second Victory happened hours ago in Maju Camp. I was scheduled to take my annual IPPT this morning and prior to this test, I restricted my drinks and food intake and even fine tune my sleeping hours to make sure that I have enough rest. All efforts were paid off but I could not have made it alone. All thanks to WeiDian, a CDO comrade which I just got to know before the run and he said he is fine to pace me and keep me going.

The first 3 rounds were superb. I was running at 1 min 30 seconds (plus minus 5 seconds) constantly but fatigue starts to kick in when I was in my 4th round. From past experience, this is the moment where my mental has to overcome all possible distractions. From heavy breathing to heavy legs... you just have to tell yourself to maintain the pace on and on. Luckily, Weidian was behind me for the first 3 rounds and overtook me in the fourth round and I decided to run behind him and chase him all the way till the finishing line.

I came in at 9 mins 52 seconds and was very thrilled as it is my 2nd consecutive Gold for my reservist period.

The rest of the results for static stations are:

Chin up - 10 (5 points)
Situp - 36 (4 points)
Shuttle run - 9.5 sec (5 points)
Standing Board Jump - 234cm (5points)

To end this, I have to say my heartest thanks to those who have help me..

As the saying goes... "Tough Time don't last, Tough Men do...Do it once, Do it good"

From Optimus Prime...

2011-07-20T14:11:00.000-07:00

Remember this: You may lose your faith in us.. But never in yourselves.

Update...

2011-07-17T04:56:00.000-07:00

Was glad that I've cleared my Class 2A circuit evaluation test and on top of that, I did it with 1 try! Onward for my Traffic Police Test on the Aug 19..

July's Personal Objectives

2011-07-13T04:32:00.000-07:00

Clear my Class 2A lessons by End July...
Able to withstand 6 x 400m of interval training @ 1min 30seconds each rounds...
Signed up my Citibank Dividend/ SCB Prudential Card & UOB Singtel Card..

kekeke...

Purpose in Life...

2011-07-04T03:07:00.000-07:00

Its been months since my last post due to new workplace and my engagement in business. Time pass fast without me knowing that 2011 has already crossed it's halfway mark.

Sitting back in my office, looking outside the window... a question starts to ponder into my mind...

"What is my motivation and purpose in life"...

Got to find this answer soon..

新兵日记 Yes Sir!

2011-02-22T22:59:00.000-08:00

Recently, I am hooked on a Taiwan (ROC) serial drama by the title of "新兵日记 (Rookie Diary)" and it reminds me of many good old memories when I was a soldier back in BMTC as recruit as well as officer.

The serial showcased the ROC army recruit training center, known as 成功领 (Success Peak) which I believed its one of the prominent camps in the country. Interestingly, many artistes participated in this show and what keeps me going on in watching the show is the hilarious scenarios trainee soldiers always posed for their sergeants and officers.

Beside the exaggerating scenarios, the show also introduced the military songs sung by the ROC soldiers which were very inspiring and motivational. When compared to our local army, I guessed our army songs are not as patriotic as them.

The show won many awards in 2010 and became one of the hot favorite serial drama in Taiwan ROC. With many famous artistes such as 杨培安，飞轮海，萧煌奇 aiding to the show by singing the main and ending theme and the rest of the casts by singing many more songs displayed in the show, the serial is definitely being enhanced by their singings and songs.

After watching the show, I was flooded with the good old memories of recruit training back in BMTC such as eating cup noodles secretly by the toilet balcony, shitting together in the forest, going through our 7 days field camps together, training hard to pass our fitness test so and so fore.. Although its a short 9 weeks, its the introductory phase of my 2 years National Service life. My BMT mates were also the first group of army friends I know when I was enlisted as a soldier. Although we did not contact as much as before, I wished them all the best in their career, family and wealth.

I guessed every Singaporean son who went through National Service will also have the same thought as I am when and after watching this show.

Merry Xmas 2010

2010-12-25T00:33:00.000-08:00

Sincerely wishing all my family members, friends, colleagues, buddies a very blissful and fun Xmas 2010.

Hope Santa will drop by and grant you your wish.

圣诞节快乐。

Blocking 无聊 post in Facebook

2010-12-20T18:09:00.000-08:00

I guessed many find solace in the cyber world and they wished the world can centered around them. But then I hope that someone can tell them that their constant posting can be a nuisance to others. Especially application post from Foursquare.

Can anyone who knows how to block this particular application post please tell me how!!!

Post Marathon Feeling...

2010-12-06T03:37:00.001-08:00

I told myself never attempt to run a marathon again after 2008 but that was what I said to myself in 2006 & 2007 but everytime when I looked at the Finisher Tee which states "Finisher of 42.195km", the adrenaline inside me automatically spurs me to go online and register knowing that I will curse and swear again.

Similarly for this year, I attempted again but I can say that the feeling is 10x (yes..its 10 f**king times) worse compared to the previous runs that I have participated; especially the last 10km (somewhere starting from the marina golf course towards marina barrage).

Definitely, the full marathon route did provide a sense of new challenges and also our island's iconic views as compared to the usual route the previous organizer planned. This year, it kicked off at Orchard road and ran past areas such as Chinatown, Tanjong Pagar, Raffles Place, Esplanade, Marina Floating Platform, Singapore GP F1 Pit, Fort Road, East Coast Park (to and fro), Marina Gold Course, Marina Barrage, Marina Bay Sands and end off at Padang again.

Clear Open Sky (thats great!), Scotching Sun (thats bad!), no water points, no medical coverage.. these 4 factors would be enough to kill someone who had covered at least 30km on legs. That is the point where you will just keep your heads low and keep walking/running with the thought and motivation you would get to see a water point ahead. By the way, this paragraph is dedicated to the Marina Golf Course/ Marina Barrage Route.

Being someone who is very capable physically, this is also the first time I felt my legs went dead on me. It went so dead that even walking is a pain. Once you stepped past the starting line, there is no point of return unless you finish the run at the designated end point. Simply to say, you are "f**ked".

You will ask yourself....

"Why on earth you would pay money to torture yourself?"

"Why are you here.. doing this?"

Guessed the only complain I have would be the East Coast Park Expressway portion (In front of Marina Bay Sands). It is a 1km up-slope which everyone has to overcome. Without forgetting the fatigue in your body and the hot weather, this portion is definitely the climax of the run.

Enough of all the ranting and complains as it is over for about 2 weeks. The only blessed thing I ever get from this marathon is no injuries despite zero training.

Now the next question is: Should I try again in 2011 ?

(lol)

十二星座谁最有心计

2010-12-02T18:30:00.001-08:00

双鱼座

心计排名：第十二

鱼儿生性柔弱，很喜欢奉献，也不会随意伤人，没什么主见，和 “心计”两个字根本沾不上边。温柔如他们，大多数情况下还是那种自己被骗还会帮人数钞票的“白痴天使”一类，或者一旦遇到问题自己连想都不想就急于去找人帮忙，若找不到人就哭，一点都不坚强，又不懂得如何去分析人心。所以啦，鱼儿还是多些朋友罩着比较好哦！

白羊座

心计排名：第十一

白羊座是十二星座中的第一个星座，代表着初生的原始灵魂和感觉。羊儿充满了活力、热情和强烈的好奇心，具有坚强的意志力。他们的感情直白而浓烈，自然是没什么心计的，有的只是一颗赤诚的心。更为糟糕的是，他们遇事都比较冲动，什么事情都不会用脑子去想一想，只知道用暴力去解决，坏脾气和鲁莽的行为总是让羊儿变得颇为狼狈，被人笑作“有勇无谋”。

金牛座

心计排名：第十

牛牛可是超级大好人哦，他们忠诚、真心、善解人意、实际、不浮夸、率真、负责，凡事讲求原则及合理性。哈哈，反正是那种绝对为人着想不会搞一己之私的人啦，所以哦，牛牛是不会对人耍心计的。他们喜欢小心谨慎地生活、勤奋踏实地工作，事事都是如此，而且他们在十二星座中算是工作最勤勉的。要知道，爱钻“牛角尖”的他们平时连小聪明都不屑使用呢，更何况是耍手腕了！他们宁愿自己生闷气，也不轻易说出来。

狮子座

心计排名：第九

狮子座的人是四肢发达、头脑简单的最佳例子。他们的确属于领导人物，有着“宰相肚里好撑船”的大度，也有些谋略，不过别人就未必像他们一样君子了。可惜的是好大喜功的狮子眼里看不到沙子，为了表面的虚荣，只顾一味去追寻自己理想中的利益，不管暗地里别人对他们的算计，也不懂得能屈能伸的变通，因此常常被人暗地里笑话蠢啦！

巨蟹座

心计排名：第八

巨蟹座的人充满温情、喜欢顺从，他们浑身散发着慈爱的光辉，怀旧而恋家。他们对勾心斗角没什么兴趣，照顾好家人和朋友是蟹蟹最大的心愿哦。如果非要说蟹蟹会动什么歪脑筋的话，只能说他们会“讨好人”。蟹蟹胆子很小，很怕得罪人，因此他们懂得在不同的人面前说不同的话，采用不同的观点，好做到不得罪人。若有人要伤害他们的家人，那他们可顾不了那么多了，于是就开始“委曲求全”，真的是用心良苦呢！

射手座

心计排名：第七

射手总是保持着童真，他们始终在追求一个能完全属于自己的生活环境，但可能是因他们有着豁达的人生观，所以有时常会乐观得太过“一厢情愿” 了。他们也没点正经，成天一副吊儿郎当的样子，天真无邪到底。不过千万记得，射手可是聪明的家伙，有时候还是会有小小的心计哦！乘大家对表面浑噩的他们没有防备、放掉戒心，然后背后偷偷地“捅”一刀！哈哈，射手八成会乐翻。不过放心好啦，射手的心计多半只是恶作剧而已。

处女座

心计排名：第六

处女有丰富的知识，做事一丝不苟，他们追求完美，最担心的事情就是自己在别人心目中的形象不够完美。因此他们会不断地掩饰自己，行事也非常有规划性，且非常谨慎哦，有些心计才是生存的根本呢！但他们的心计到底有多深？放心，不会很深啦！他们就算再有城府、再聪明你也不必担心处女会出来陷害人，要知道处女的生活有点全封闭式，他们坚持“人不犯我我不犯人”的原则。

天秤座

心计排名：第五

秤子天生具有理想主义和现实主义精神，他们追求公正和公平，凡事都会用心中的“一杆秤”衡量一下，以免破坏追求的公平。所以啦，说秤子有心计不为过呢，这是他们很具聪明才智的表现。秤子的心计不仅用在处事的和谐上哦，还有很大一部分用在个人形象上呢！谁都知道秤子气质脱俗、举止优雅，如果没有 “掩饰”的诀窍也绝对不行哦。想来，秤子在社交礼仪上也是花了很重的心思呢。

天蝎座

心计排名：第四

蝎子总是给人冷冷的、不寒而栗的感觉。他们外表看起来冷若冰霜，其实暗地里会观察每一个人，心计颇深呢。直觉敏锐的他们看人是百分之百准确，即使他们知道事情的真相也绝对不会轻易暴露出来，因为跟他们自己没关系的事他们很少管，但他们知道的却多，所以等到逼不得已的时候，蝎子才会悄悄地把真相说出。这就是蝎子的厉害之处，所以哦，千万不要得罪蝎子，他们可是“有仇不报非君子”呢！

双子座

心计排名：第三

双子相当具有灵性，心智活跃敏锐，从他们的言语中就可以看出他们很高深莫测。毫无疑问，双子的心计绝对不一般呢！他们通常用一些看起来是开玩笑的语言来讽刺人，偏偏别人还不好翻脸回骂，这种讽刺人的境界真是很高呢！什么什么，你要和他们理论，劝你还是安静地走开吧，狡猾的双子脑袋里所想的理由恐怕比你义正词严的质问要多得多呢！

摩羯座

心计排名：第二

千万别被摩羯们平静的外表所欺骗了！他们在表面上看来总是严肃而认真的，让人觉得他们很教条，以为他们不会耍什么手段。而实际上，安静的外表就是他们保护自己的壳子，真正的摩羯做事稳重，待人处事总是经过很慎重的考虑。因为他们想得多，所以让人觉得他们比较死板，其实这就是他们掩饰自己的壳子，死板的深层意思其实是“算计”哦。

水瓶座

心计排名：第一

瓶子重视理论知识，有优秀的推理能力和创造力，他们的心计通常旁人是无法察觉的。瓶子向来喜欢独来独往，因此没人能琢磨透他们的心思，更可况古灵精怪的他们思维古怪，别人就更猜不到瓶子在想什么了。不过，喜欢思考的他们就是有办法一步一步达成自己的目标，不管用明用暗，总可以自由地操纵别人，以达成目的。瓶子无时无刻不在观察别人，是厉害的狠角色。

End of my 4th In Camp Training

2010-11-13T17:36:00.000-08:00

Hooray.. End of my 4th ICT.. and guess what. I survived the demanding week with clocking 2 important objectives I set for myself.

firstly.. it was my IPPT. The dreading thought that you have to run below 9min and 59 seconds makes me very whining and luckily, with the help of my B2, I managed to clocked in 9 min and 53 seconds which is a GOLD timing for me for my age band category and because of that, I was awarded the $400 incentive!!

secondly.. it was my shooting campaign or I should say it was "our" shooting campaign. Why "ours"? That is because the marksmen campaign is based on group effort and to qualify for it, our group effort must hit at least 80% for both day and night shoot. In total, my group scored a total of 82%. Kudos to the team.. another $200 into our individual pocket!

Every ICT gives me a different feeling at the end of the training and every ICT always give me a good chance to learn more that what I have expected. I should and will make use of this opportunity to always learn and contribute to the team.

Kudos to our planning team!!

Recap of 2010.. Interesting and Challenging

2010-10-29T17:24:00.000-07:00

Looking back for the year, I guessed 2010 will be the most significant change in my life. Perhaps this does not only happen to me because by 26 - 27, normal Singaporean guys would have finished their university education or chose to have a career switch at this point in time.

Jan to March:
I was still preparing for my university final paper. For that last module, I remembered the "unmotivated willingness" to study and conduct research project. But thank god, we still achieve an Distinction for that.

During the midst of this, I also managed to finish my 3rd ICT and had attained good reviews by my superior and commanders.

April to June:
Officially graduated from my studies. Enrolled on a international certification and exam based in Kuala Lumpur. Basically for that 3 months of post university studies, I was only concentrating on tackling the certification.

Had a short trip to KL for my certification and also to explore the capital of Malaysia.

July to August:
Officially attained my international certification. Final 2 months in my workplace in Sempra Oil Energy Trading. The thought of entrepreneur sparks me while I was eating my favourite Lor Mee at Jalan Bukit Ho Swee.

It was also this period of time where I received my promotion news from the army side. I was officially promoted to the rank of CPT.

During this point of time, I had enrolled for my PADI open water diving course at Tioman island, Eastern Malaysia. It was an eye opening activity to explore the underwater world. Did I mentioned we saw sea turtle swimming past us =)

September to November:
Full force on my business. Luckily along the way, I was also called up by Singapore Sports School for a position in their Strength & Conditioning unit. Thanks to the certification that makes me 1 level higher than normal graduate.

It was also this time that I went for my PADI Advance open water at South China Sea. It was a 3D2N living on board experience and I am really glad to have this opportunity to go there with some of my best buddies and experience nature to its max.

It was also this time that I went for my first oversea volunteering with a group of friends from City Harvest. From the trip, I was overwhelmed by how lucky I am as a Singaporean. I will definitely try my best to re-visit them again to help.

Whats next for the remaining of 2010 and 2011? I am quite excited and also preparing myself to embrace the difficulties I will face. Whether anot its in my business work, my higher education commitment, In Camp Trainings, traveling, financial plannings etc.. its time to really face it as a mature adult.

And also on second thought, Life is not the way it seems anymore.

Jiayou to everyone. Make everything that you do counts...

笑忘歌

2010-10-24T18:15:00.000-07:00

伤心的
都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌

EULOGY BY MINISTER MENTOR AT THE FUNERAL SERVICE OF MRS LEE KUAN YEW,

2010-10-06T17:38:00.000-07:00

EULOGY BY MINISTER MENTOR AT THE FUNERAL SERVICE OF MRS LEE
KUAN YEW, MANDAI CREMATORIUM, 6 OCTOBER 2010

The last farewell to my wife
Ancient peoples developed and ritualised mourning practices to
express the shared grief of family and friends, and together show not fear or
distaste for death, but respect for the dead one; and to give comfort to the living
who will miss the deceased. I recall the ritual mourning when my maternal
grandmother died some 75 years ago. For five nights the family would gather to
sing her praises and wail and mourn at her departure, led by a practised
professional mourner. Such rituals are no longer observed. My family’s sorrow is
to be expressed in personal tributes to the matriarch of our family.
In October 2003 when she had her first stroke, we had a strong
intimation of our mortality.
My wife and I have been together since 1947 for more than three
quarters of our lives. My grief at her passing cannot be expressed in words. But
today, when recounting our lives together, I would like to celebrate her life.
In our quiet moments, we would revisit our lives and times together.
We had been most fortunate. At critical turning points in our lives, fortune
favoured us.

As a young man with an interrupted education at Raffles College,
and no steady job or profession, her parents did not look upon me as a desirable
son-in-law. But she had faith in me. We had committed ourselves to each other.
In February 1952, our first son Hsien Loong was born. She took
maternity leave for a year. That February, I was asked by John Laycock, the
Senior Partner, to take up the case of the Postal and Telecommunications

Uniformed Staff Union, the postmen’s union. They were negotiating with the
government for better terms and conditions of service. Negotiations were
deadlocked and they decided to go on strike. It was a battle for public support. I
was able to put across the reasonableness of their case through the press and
radio. After a fortnight, they won concessions from the government. Choo, who
was at home on maternity leave, pencilled through my draft statements, making
them simple and clear.

Over the years, she influenced my writing style. Now I write in
short sentences, in the active voice. We gradually influenced each other’s ways
and habits as we adjusted and accommodated each other. We knew that we
could not stay starry-eyed lovers all our lives; that life was an on-going challenge
with new problems to resolve and manage.

We had two more children, Wei Ling in 1955 and Hsien Yang in
1957. She brought them up to be well-behaved, polite, considerate and never to
throw their weight as the prime minister’s children. As a lawyer, she earned
enough, to free me from worries about the future of our children.

She saw the price I paid for not having mastered Mandarin when I
was young. We decided to send all three children to Chinese kindergarten and
schools. She made sure they learned English and Malay well at home. Her
nurturing has equipped them for life in a multi-lingual region.

We never argued over the upbringing of our children, nor over
financial matters. Our earnings and assets were jointly held. We were each
other’s confidant.

She had simple pleasures. We would walk around the Istana
gardens in the evening, and I hit golf balls to relax. Later, when we had
grandchildren, she would take them to feed the fish and the swans in the Istana
ponds. Then we would swim. She was interested in her surroundings, for
instance, that many bird varieties were pushed out by mynahs and crows eating
up the insects and vegetation. She discovered the curator of the gardens had
cleared wild grasses and swing fogged for mosquitoes, killing off insects they fed
on. She stopped this and the bird varieties returned. She surrounded the
swimming pool with free flowering scented flowers and derived great pleasure
smelling them as she swam. She knew each flower by its popular and botanical
names. She had an enormous capacity for words.

She helped me draft the Constitution of the PAP. For the
inaugural meeting at Victoria Memorial Hall on 4 November 1954, she gathered
the wives of the founder members to sew rosettes for those who were going on
stage. In my first election for Tanjong Pagar, our home in Oxley Road, became
the HQ to assign cars provided by my supporters to ferry voters to the polling
booth. She warned me that I could not trust my new found associates, the leftwing
trade unionists led by Lim Chin Siong. She was furious that he never sent
their high school student helpers to canvass for me in Tanjong Pagar, yet
demanded the use of cars provided by my supporters to ferry my Tanjong Pagar
voters. She had an uncanny ability to read the character of a person. She would
sometimes warn me to be careful of certain persons; often, she turned out to be
right.

When we were about to join Malaysia, she told me that we would
not succeed because the UMNO Malay leaders had such different lifestyles and
because their politics were communally-based, on race and religion. I replied
that we had to make it work as there was no better choice. But she was right.
We were asked to leave Malaysia before two years.

When separation was imminent, Eddie Barker, as Law Minister,
drew up the draft legislation for the separation. But he did not include an
undertaking by the Federation Government to guarantee the observance of the
two water agreements between the PUB and the Johor state government. I
asked Choo to include this. She drafted the undertaking as part of the
constitutional amendment of the Federation of Malaysia Constitution itself. She
was precise and meticulous in her choice of words. The amendment statute was
annexed to the Separation Agreement, which we then registered with the United
Nations.

After her first stroke, she lost her left field of vision. This slowed
down her reading. She learned to cope, reading with the help of a ruler. She
swam every evening and kept fit. She continued to travel with me, and stayed
active despite the stroke. She stayed in touch with her family and old friends.
She listened to her collection of CDs, mostly classical, plus some golden oldies.
She jocularly divided her life into “before stroke” and “after stroke”, like BC and
AD.

She was friendly and considerate to all associated with her. She
would banter with her WSOs (woman security officers) and correct their English
grammar and pronunciation in a friendly and cheerful way. Her former WSOs
visited her when she was at NNI. I thank them all. (Listed in Appendix A)
Her second stroke on 12 May 2008 was more disabling. I
encouraged and cheered her on, helped by a magnificent team of doctors,
surgeons, therapists and nurses. (Listed in Appendix B.)

Her nurses, WSOs and maids all grew fond of her because she
was warm and considerate. When she coughed, she would take her small pillow
to cover her mouth because she worried for them and did not want to infect them.
Her mind remained clear but her voice became weaker. When I
kissed her on her cheek, she told me not to come too close to her in case I
caught her pneumonia. I assured her that the doctors did not think that was likely
because I was active. When given some peaches in hospital, she asked the
maid to take one home for my lunch. I was at the centre of her life.

On 24 June 2008, a CT scan revealed another bleed again on the
right side of her brain. There was not much more that medicine or surgery could
do except to keep her comfortable.
I brought her home on 3 July 2008. The doctors expected her to
last a few weeks. She lived till 2nd October, 2 years and 3 months. She
remained lucid. They gave time for me and my children to come to terms with
the inevitable. In the final few months, her faculties declined. She could not
speak but her cognition remained. She looked forward to have me talk to her
every evening.

Her last wish she shared with me was to enjoin our children to have
our ashes placed together, as we were in life.
The last two years of her life were the most difficult. She was bedridden
after small successive strokes; she could not speak but she was still
cognisant. Every night she would wait for me to sit by her to tell her of my day’s
activities and to read her favourite poems. Then she would sleep.

I have precious memories of our 63 years together. Without her, I
would be a different man, with a different life. She devoted herself to me and our
children. She was always there when I needed her. She has lived a life full of
warmth and meaning.

I should find solace at her 89 years of her life well lived. But at this
moment of the final parting, my heart is heavy with sadness.

Goodbye Mrs LKY

2010-10-04T00:54:00.000-07:00

Goodbye Mrs LKY.

You are definitely and certainly a role model to follow for the current and future singaporean.

*Salute*

News link from ChannelNewsAsia
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/1084980/1/.html

Be thankful always...

2010-08-17T02:07:00.000-07:00

With the NDP and the inaugural YOG happening in the month of August, it is ought to be an exciting month for Singapore.

and of course, not forgetting the recent heavy downpour that floods our famous Orchard road and other low lying area around Singapore...

What do i see?

I see.. Ugliness..

Ugliness not because our island is badly hit by floods and also not because of the recently NDP and current YOG. I see Ugliness in people... and sad to say, even my friends who made comment in FB.

I read a recent post from FB and it indicate "YOG volunteers served dog food" Well, from 1 glance, the food defintely looked bad in terms of appearances and colour but, at least there is still food to keep you away from hunger and give you the energy to work and growth.

What do the families and children who are experiencing famine have for dinner?

Give it a good thought. Food maybe bad but at least, be thankful that there is still food.

Next, I am going to say about people who made comments about our foreign workers, mainly the people from PRC and India/Bangladesh.

Yes, I agree with you that they have unglam behaviors or smells at times.. but again. Give it another good thought, if they were not here, do you think Singapore can be what it is today?

Have you spare a thought for them that they are smelling our rubbish while clearing the rubbish, or doing renovation works in our neighbourhood which is to benefit and better our living qualities in our housing estate.

Come to think about it, Do you think Singaporean will do that? Clearing rubbish, clearing plates at coffee shops etc.

So I hope that you should be thankful and also give them the respect they deserve.

I have enough of ranting. But I am just quite disappointed with some of my friends who made such comments through FB. I thought my friends will be matured enough but was quite disappointed when they said it out in FB.

worst, some of them have rich religious background. Shouldn't people (regardless of country, color and status) care for 1 another as if how God care for his people. Did God ever say that because you are rubbish cleaner, I should forget about you...

No right?

I am not targeting at any religious bodies but I just hope my friends can get the message across. In fact, we should happy that these people help to keep our daily lives much better.

It is definitely true that majority of our population are pampered due to the mentality of "goverment-owe-us thinking" but it is definitely more important to get prepared for the worst when the red button is pressed.

Therefore, please be thankful of everything you have, directly and indirectly... always

居安思危，饮水思源。

2 more weeks...

2010-08-11T23:30:00.000-07:00

2 more weeks to a new chapter of my life.
- a life which I will be facing rejections most of the time,
- a life which I will have to find income
- a life which I will need more determination and discipline than ever...

yes.. I be my own boss..and moving on towards my career goals.

The journey is undulating and weathered with storms but I hope I can persevere through all obstacles to reach my goals....

如果。。。

2010-08-07T20:36:00.000-07:00

如果我们之间有1000步的距离你只要跨出第1步我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步
. 通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人才是爱你的人
. 付出真心才会得到真心却也可能伤得彻底保持距离就能保护自己却也注定寂寞
.... 有时候不是对方不在乎你而是你把对方看得太重
. 朋友就是把你看透了还能喜欢你的人. 就算是believe中也藏了一个lie
. 好朋友并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题而是在一起就算不说话也不会感到尴尬
. 没有一百分的另一半只有五十分的两个人
. 为你的难过而难过的就是该放进心里的人
. 冷漠有时候并不是无情只是一种避免被伤害的工具

Personal Motto

2010-07-17T00:36:00.001-07:00

Challenges are what I seek,
Passion is what I put,
Success is what I deliver...

a song that kept me company for the past few weeks...

2010-07-11T04:15:00.000-07:00

Was watching the download 艋舺 (monga) and came upon this old song... Well, it was re-sang by Nicky Lee (李玖哲) and both the original singer (Air Supply) and Nicky Lee produce different feeling and effect after listening to the song....

And This is Nicky Lee Version...

Hopefully they have this in KTV :)

Back from my diving trip

2010-07-06T08:55:00.000-07:00

Back from my open water diving @ Pulau Tioman. Till now, I am still feeling tired from the trip, perhaps the nitrogen in my body has not yet been flushed out from my body (rubbish!) But I guessed I really enjoyed my trip with my OCS kakis. No matter where we go, where we are, laughter never stop and never end.

Time for work and also time to double up on my business prep. 6 more weeks to the end of my job in Sempra and also a new beginning to another chapter of my life. It's really not easy setting business from zero.

We never know the results till we've tried and even if we failed, we know that we have been there and done that =)

What is the True "Worth" of Things in Life

2010-06-26T03:51:00.001-07:00

THE SOLDIER

Horror gripped the heart of a World War-I soldier, as he saw his lifelong friend fall in battle.

The soldier asked his Lieutenant if he could go out to bring his fallen comrade back.

"You can go," said the Lieutenant," but don't think it will be worth it. Your friend is probably dead and you may throw your life away."

The Lieutenant's words didn't matter, and the soldier went anyway.

Miraculously, he managed to reach his friend, hoisted him onto his shoulder and brought him back to their company's trench.

The officer checked the wounded soldier, then looked kindly at his friend.

"I told you it wouldn't be worth it," he said. "Your friend is dead and you are badly wounded."

"It was worth it, Sir!" said the soldier.

"What do you mean by worth it?" responded the Lieutenant. "Your friend is dead."

"Yes Sir," the soldier answered, "but it was worth it because when I got to him,

he was still alive and I had the satisfaction of hearing him say....

"Jim...I knew you'd come."

REFLECTION

Many times in life, whether a thing is worth doing or not, really depends on how we look at it.

Enjoy the "little" things- for one day, we may look back and come to realise for ourselves that they were, indeed the "BIG" things for us in our own lives, subsequently.

The way to love anything is to realise its worth and that it might be lost.

Also, relationships are like crystals, you don’t realize how much its worth until it breaks.

Take up all your courage and do something your heart tells you to do, so that you may not regret not doing it, later in your life!

Army Promotion Ceremony 2010

2010-06-18T19:57:00.001-07:00

Certainly an eye opener to attend the ceremony and also had an opportunity to receive my promotion award from the newly appointed Chief of Army, Brigadier General Chan.

2010 NBA Finals Champions - Los Angeles Lakers

2010-06-18T19:21:00.000-07:00

Thats why I love Basketball....

enough...

2010-06-06T08:43:00.000-07:00

had a good weekend to realign my focus back...

maybe my analysis is too calculative
maybe my options are too many that I been telling myself too many "what if"
maybe the more educated you are, the less guts you have to step out of your comfort zone

but we were born with nothing initially so why are we so calculative, why are we so afraid?

I have learnt to appreciate the real meaning of "no regrets till you have really tried"

and because of it, I decided to start from scratch, start from zero again.

bless me..

thank you :)

不是男女朋友的男女朋友‏

2010-05-24T05:55:00.000-07:00

不是男朋友的男朋友

每个女生心里都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友
你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，
但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见，你们没有在一起。
也许为了自己的前程，她没有要你等她

也许你们相遇太早，
还不懂得珍惜对方。

也许你们相遇太晚，
你们身边已经有了另一个人。

也许你回头太迟，
对方已不再等待。

也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，
而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，
你们还是保持了朋友的关系。

但是你们心底清楚，
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，
你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

她有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，
心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望她追到。

她遇到困难时，
你会尽你所能的帮她，
不会计较谁又欠了谁。

男女朋友吃醋了，
你会安抚他们说你和她只是朋友，
但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定

每个人这辈子，
心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，
很矛盾的行为。

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，
但久了，突然发现这样最好。

你宁愿这样关心她，
总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。

你宁愿做她的朋友，
彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。

特别是这样，
你还是知道，
她永远会关心你的。

做不成男女朋友，
当她那个特别的朋友，
有什么不好呢？

你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？

很多的感情，
都因为一厢情愿，
最后连朋友都当不成了

常常觉得惋惜，
可惜一些本来很好的友情

最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，
如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，
这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，
表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，
要不就连朋友都当不成了。

有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，
你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的......

关于爱情：
不要认为后面还有更好的，因为现在拥有就是最好的。
不要认为我还年轻，可以晚些结婚，爱情是不等年龄的。
不要因为距离太远而放弃，爱情是可以和你一起坐火车的。
不要因为对方不富裕而放弃，只要不是无能的人，勤劳可以让你们致富。
不要因为父母反对而放弃，你会发现这个原因而放弃的爱情，将是你一生的悔恨。
其实，对于爱情，越单纯越幸福！一生只谈一次恋爱是最好的。经历的太多了，会麻木，分离多了，会习惯，换恋人多了，会比较，到最后你会不再相信爱情，你会自暴自弃，你会毫无生气，你会行尸走肉，你会与一个你不爱的人结婚，就这样过一辈子···

所以牵好的手就不要轻易放开，说过的话就不要轻易收回，承诺过的人就不要轻易忘记···

有些人，有些事，既然发生了。
就注定是你一生的回忆···

完美的情书

2010-05-21T08:45:00.000-07:00

某天,女孩终于鼓起勇气对男孩说："我们分手吧！"男孩问："为什么？"女孩说："倦了，就不需要理由了！"

一个晚上男孩只抽烟不说话,女孩的心也越来越凉.连挽留都不会表达的情人能给我什么样的快乐？

过了许久,男孩终忍不住说："怎么做你才能留下来？"女孩慢慢地说："回答一个问题，如果你能答到我心里就答案，

我就留下,"比如我非常喜欢悬崖上的一朵花，而你去摘的结果是百分之百的死亡，你会不会摘给我？"

男孩想了想说："明天早晨告诉你答案好吗？"女孩的心顿时灰了下来！！！

早晨醒来，男孩已经不在；只有一张写满字的纸压在温热的牛奶杯下：

第一行，就让女孩的心凉透了.

亲爱的，我不会去摘,但请容许我陈述不去摘的理由,你只会用电脑打字,却总把程序弄得一塌糊涂,

然后对着键盘哭,我要留着手指给你整理程序,你出门总是忘记带钥匙,我要留着双脚跑回来给你开门.

酷爱旅游的你,在自己的城市里都常常迷路,我要留着眼睛给你带路,每月（好朋友）光临时你总是全身冰凉，还肚子疼.

我要留着掌心温暖你的小腹,你不爱出门,我担心你会患上自闭症,我要留着嘴巴躯赶你的寂寞,你总是盯者电脑,

眼睛给糟蹋得已不是太好了,我要好好活着,等你老了,给你修剪指甲,帮你拔掉让你懊恼的白发,拉着你的手,

在海边享受美好的阳光和柔软的沙滩,告诉你一朵朵花的颜色,像你青春的脸……

所以在我不能确定有人比我更爱你以前,我不想去摘那朵花……

（女孩泪滴在纸上形成晶莹的花朵）抹净眼泪，女孩继续往下看：

亲爱的如果你已经看完了,答案还让你满意的话,请你开门吧,我正站在门外,手里提着你最喜欢吃的鲜奶面包……

女孩拉开门,看见他的脸,紧张得像个孩子

一个出轨男人与佛的对话

2010-05-10T18:27:00.001-07:00

深夜，寺里一人一佛，佛坐人站。

人：圣明的佛，我是一个已婚之人，我现在狂热地爱上了另一个女人，我真的不知道该怎幺办。

佛：你能确写你现在爱上的这个女人就是你生命里唯一的最后一个女人吗？

人：是的。

佛：你离婚，然后娶她。

人：可是我现在的爱人温柔，善良，贤惠，我这样做是否有一点残忍，有一点不道德。

佛：在婚姻中没有爱才是残忍和不道德的，你现在爱上了别人已不爱她了，你这样做是正确的。

人：可是我爱人很爱我，真的很爱我。

佛：那她就是幸福的。

人：我要与她离婚后另娶她人，她应该是很痛苦的又怎幺会是幸福的呢？

佛：在婚姻里她还拥有她对你的爱，而你在婚姻中已失去对她的爱，因为你爱上了别人，正谓拥有的就是幸福的，失去的才是痛苦的，所以痛苦的人是你。

人：可是我要和她离婚后另娶她人，应该是她失去了我，她应该才是痛苦的。

佛：你错了，你只是她婚姻中真爱的一个具体，当你这个具体不存在的时候，她的真爱会延续到另一个具体，因为她在婚姻中的真爱从没有失去过。所以她才是幸福的而你才是痛苦的。

人：她说过今生只爱我一个，她不会爱上别人的。

佛：这样的话你也说过吗？

人：我。我。。我。。。

佛：你现在看你面前香炉里的三根蜡烛，那根最亮。

人：我真的不知道，好象都是一样的亮。

佛：这三根蜡烛就好比是三个女人，其中一根就是你现在所爱的那个女人，芸芸众生，女人何止千百万万，你连这三根蜡烛那根最亮都不知道，都不能把你现在爱的人找出来，你为什么又能确定你现在爱的这个女人就是你生命里唯一的最后一个女人呢？

人：我。我。。我。。。

佛：你现在拿一根蜡烛放在你的眼前，用心看看那根最亮

人：当然是眼前的这根最亮。

佛：你现在把它放回原处，再看看那根最亮

人：我真的还是看不出那根最亮。

佛：其实你刚拿的那根蜡烛就是好比是你现在爱的那个最后的女人，所谓爱由心生，当你感觉你爱她时，你用心去看就觉的它最亮，当你把它放回原处，你却找不到最亮的一点感觉，你这种所谓的最后的唯一的爱只是镜花水月，到头来终究是一场空。

人：哦，我懂了，你并不是要我与我的爱人离婚，你是在点化我，

佛：看破不说破，你去吧

人：我现在真的知道我爱的是谁了，她就是我现在的爱人。

佛：阿弥陀佛，阿弥陀佛

你我曾经深爱过的某人，无非也就是芸芸众生中的一个，只是爱由心生，自以为他/她会是今生最爱，当你感觉你爱她，你用心去爱就觉的他/她最珍贵，当万物归原，生命仍然继续，他/她无非也就是我们生命中的一个过客。

我们根本无法确定哪一个才是今生最爱，如果不懂得去珍惜，你身边这个爱你的/你爱的人，在某一天，也会成为你身边的过客。

找一个你爱的人不容易，找一个爱你的人也不容易。如果无法确定哪一个才是你最爱的人，何不在自己成为别人的爱人的时候珍惜这份感情？爱由心生，你告诉自己是爱他/她的，自然就可以爱上他/她。

如果你爱的人不爱你，也请记得：爱由心生。是你太过于把目光集中在他/她身上了，试着放开视线焦点，你会发现光亮的蜡烛到处都有。

爱与不爱，无非也就是在一念之间。

过去的事情过去的爱情，就让它过去吧，那只是我们生命的一部分，只是茫茫大海中的一滴水珠，只是漫漫苍弩中的一粒微尘。没有那些过去，也不会造就现在的你我。

珍惜当前，永远胜于三心二意

动力火车 - my favourite duo since sec

2010-04-20T08:35:00.000-07:00

Introducing... 1 of my favorites music artist since Secondary school days...

I guessed they are really a nice pair of duo who knows how to cover each other as well as "screams" to heighten the songs.. their 风格 are really unique compared to other bands.

and of course.. another reason why I love the duo is because they re-sing other artist song which gives listener another feel which may eventually be better than the original singer...

人就是犯贱

2010-04-02T20:54:00.000-07:00

人就是犯贱..

when time is always more than enough, we tend to slack
when environment is too comfortable, we tend to stay comfy in it
when there are no jobs, we yearn for jobs
when there are jobs, we are tired of it and give excuses that you are unable to work
when you know this is the last obstacle to overcome, you did not put in your best but rather go through motion in doing it
when we did not get the expected results we hope for, we blamed ourselves for not putting in our best efforts initially

so much for it...

我们就是这样吗？or it is just me?

Yiruma - Kiss The Rain

2010-03-31T17:31:00.000-07:00

Quarter Life Crisis

2010-03-22T08:26:00.000-07:00

A book by Abby Wilner and Alexandra Robbins - "Quarterlife Crisis, the Unique Challenges of Life in your Twenties "

The "Quarterlife crisis" is a term applied to the period of life immediately following the major changes of adolescence, usually ranging from the early twenties to the early thirties.

Characteristics of quarter-life crisis may include:

* realizing that the pursuits of one's peers are useless
* confronting their own mortality
* watching time slowly take its toll on their parents, only to realize they are next
* insecurity regarding the fact that their actions are meaningless
* insecurity concerning ability to love themselves, let alone another person
* insecurity regarding present accomplishments
* re-evaluation of close interpersonal relationships
* lack of friendships or romantic relationships, sexual frustration, and involuntary celibacy
* disappointment with one's job
* nostalgia for university, college, high school or elementary school life
* tendency to hold stronger opinions
* boredom with social interactions
* loss of closeness to high school and college friends
* financially-rooted stress (overwhelming college loans, unanticipatedly high cost of living, etc.)
* loneliness, depression and suicide
* desire to have children
* a sense that everyone is, somehow, doing better than you
* frustration with social skills

Have you got any of those issues listed by the author?

If you have, don't worry. You are perfectly normal.

Damn it

2010-03-12T02:28:00.000-08:00

Damn it.. Recieved my final semester results yesterday

Research Methods: Design & Analysis - Distinction
Internship - Pass
Biomechanics - Higher Distinction
Sports Physiology - Pass
Psychology of Sport - Pending

Looking at my results; I thought I could at least scored a Dist. on my physiology paper which I am always strong at. But perhaps I was overconfident this time round. Just hope that it will not hinder my application for post grad.

Whats life after Grad ??

"knocking on heaven's door"

Gearing and Charging up for CSCS

2010-03-04T07:56:00.001-08:00

Pre CSCS Certification:

CPR/AED Renewal @ SGD 130
CSCS exam @ SGD590 on May 16th(After USD conversion)
Air Tix to Kuala Lumpur on May 14th @ SGD73 (inc return trip)
CSCS exam material @130

so far, my accommodation has not booked yet.

but the total damages is already SGD 923!

but i think its hell lot cheaper compared to taking the exam in Singapore @ SGD 3000. (Must be thinking we are carrot head!)

With my university studies over.. at least there is CSCS preparation to keep me occupied!

Adrenaline rushed

2010-02-21T23:34:00.000-08:00

The month of Feb is coming to an end and followed by the closure of the 1st Quarter. I am so excited about the coming of the 2nd quarter as it's a challenge to do my international certifications despite the short preparation period...

and because of that certification, i been psycho-ing myself that.. " I CAN DO IT"

I was invited to my uni senior's place for the UWA SSEH/HMES alumni gathering last saturday at Kings road and it was hell lotsa fun and eye opener to me. my seniors who are currently doing their PHD and some have finished their masters had been encouraging me to pursue my Honours and right now I believed that Honours is really important to me for my advancement in both my career and self upgrades in the future. Perhaps my 2nd part of 2010 is to enrol into it but of course, I would still like to do it in a hybrid mode which is doing my research project in Singapore and attending compulsory classes in Perth in 2011 Jan to 2011 May.

I feel so adrenaline rushed.. I must push myself forward and forward..

And lastly...

I wished for good health, good money, good career and good family to everybody I know. Let's all HUAT together in the roaring year of the tiger.

周星驰 - 大话西游之月光宝盒

2010-02-17T15:02:00.000-08:00

好有Feeling 的一段对白。。。

曾经有一份真诚的爱情放在我面前，
我没有珍惜。
等我失去的时候我才后悔莫及，
人世间最痛苦的事莫过于此。

如果上天能够给我一个再来一次的机会，
我会对那个女孩子说三个字：

我爱你。

如果非要在这份爱上加上一个期限，
我希望是——

一万年！

大K 说

2010-02-16T07:31:00.000-08:00

"没有什么对的人。。只是时间刚好"

这个时代的婚姻看法是这样的吗？

End of my 3rd ICT

2010-02-07T19:08:00.000-08:00

Its over!

ICT was tiring, hot, dirty, constipated, mosquitoes bites but.. it was certainly fun! Now I beginning to realise why most of the guys will want to volunteer to come back to serve the nation.

It's really a break from work (despite the tiredness)and almost everyone of us felt lost during the end of the ICT and were naggy towards their civilian working life. Well, at least coming back to ICT once a while certainly allow us to "escape" from work and had fun and laughters..

Although I was quite stretched out during this ICT but I kinda love the nights I spent out there when we were out in the field. Especially the nights where I climbed up to the rooftop and sleep under the starry sky with the moon as my only light. Waking up in the wee hours of the morning, burning solid fuel to boil water for milo and cereals and enjoying the hot drink while the day starts to bright up.

Where can we possibly see this in Singapore anymore?

So.. i got to thank this ICT for giving me a chance to go back to nature and I certainly love it.

To my commanders and soldiers of the unit, you guys had already put in your best show throughout the 2 weeks. Although the end results is not what we expected, but I guessed the process is more important than the end result. Remember how you guys got there and I certainly think that we, as a whole, can further improve.

Arg.. I begining to miss the nights out there and my friend's "wild boar attack" (Snoring)

ICT - Reservist

2010-01-20T08:50:00.001-08:00

Busy and well occupied since 1st Jan..

and now.. its time to take a break from work..

16 days of "vacation"

My 3rd High Key In Camp Training... here I come..

2010 - Greetings & Goals

2010-01-02T16:26:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year to everybody!!!

2009 was over with just a blink of an eye and its time to work hard or work even harder in this upcoming 2010. Thus, during this first long weekend of the year, I have wrote down and planned for my targets this year from Jan to June 2010. It certainly is an exciting 6 months plan and I must tell myself to achieve it.

Definitely, the top priority of my goal settings is to find myself a job and embark my career from there and I will also be able to know my future more or perhaps align my Post. Grad. education to it.

Goals of the Year:

- Secure a job
- More new friends
- Save up more for my Post Grad in 2011 (Target)

Quarter 1 Events & Goals
~~- ICT~~
- AAESS
- PPT

Quarter 2 Events & Goals

- KL/Genting Trip
- CPR & AED Certification
- NCAP Lvl 01
- NSCA CSCS (Bangkok/ KL / HK )
- NESTA BMS

** To be Updated **

Quarter 3 - Quarter 4
- Possible Taiwan Trip

Christmas 2009

2009-12-26T23:18:00.000-08:00

It had been a fun filled and tiring December for the last of 2009. Lots of activities over the weekend. Although the rain dampened the spirits at times, but I guessed the rain also allowed most of us to sleep in comfort. I admitted I spent most of the Xmas weekend on bed. Its just too comfortable to lie on my bed and rest. Perhaps its too recharge my body which was exhausted over the last few weekends.

Firstly, I would like to congratulate Weiyue & Nicole for tying the knot on December 20th. Best wishes to them. Thanks for giving me a task to help out and I hope I did a great job on that night.

Secondly, I would like to thank my boss, Miss Margaret Loo, for taking care of me while I am working for the company. Thanks for sharing her views with me in regarding to life planning, teaching me how to plan properly, giving me advise about stages in life and of course, keep encouraging me when I was down and giving me opportunities when needed. I would also like to thank you for giving me multiple time-off to do my internship at KKH and Sports School. I guessed without your help, I would not able to do my internship successfully

Thirdly, I would like to thank my KKH internship colleagues - Michael Lim, Susan Oh & Jillian. I guessed I really enjoyed working with you guys/ladies. Thanks for sharing lots of information and allowing me to run sessions with the kids. This really build up my confidence and changing my "military" style to a "kiddy style". I seriously pray and pray that I be part of the team one day.. Clinical sports science is really somewhere I would like to venture out as my career.

Life has been up and down for 2009. But I guessed I must stand up and learn from all the events to make a better person...

Also wishing everybody I know .. A Happy Xmas... hope everybody 'HUAT' in 2010 !!

奶奶过世的 100 天

2009-12-13T20:20:00.000-08:00

时间过得真快。一转眼大家又回到海印古寺祭拜奶奶过世的100 天。根据佛教跟道教的习俗，人死的第七天（头七），第４９天（七七），第１００天和忌日都是很重要的日期。虽然听起来很复杂，很麻烦，但这个习俗和法事却能让我们的先人早日找到极乐，减轻罪孽。

因为经历了奶奶的伤事却得知了很多有关于宗教往身的知识。有可能这些道理能够解答死后的答案。谁能够证明呢？我想。。　只有亲身体验才知道。所以有时候，宗教的信仰是一种很重要的精神力量。

最近也很忙但我觉得时间过得很不充实。。因为有时候，事情摆在我面前但我就是不想去做。。　最后宝贵的时间却一秒一秒的过。到头来，什么事情都没做。有做的话也不是尽全力去做。真是对自己感到失望。

娘的！

在多几个月就要进入大学毕业后的生涯。我也希望一切能顺利的发展。如今也已经尽力把学业读好，工作做好，实习时也学了很多东西。希望我这３年的努力会有一些好开头。

而现在。。　我想我要做的事情。就是要反省！

人的一生会遇到四个人

2009-12-07T21:32:00.001-08:00

人的一生会遇到四个人

第一个是自己,
第二个是你最爱的人，
第三个是最爱你的人，
第四个是共度一生的人。

首先会遇到你最爱的人，然后体会到爱的感觉；
因为了解被爱的感觉，所以才能发现最爱你的人；
当你经历过爱人与被爱，学会了爱，才会知道什么是你需要的，也才会找到最适合你，能够相处一辈子的人。
但很悲哀的，在现实生活中，这三个人通常不是同一个人；
你最爱的，往往没有选择你；最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的；
而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的，
只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。
你，会是别人生命中的第几个人呢？
没有人是故意要变心的，他爱你的时候是真的爱你，可是他不爱你的时候也是真的不爱你了，他爱你的时候没有办法假装不爱你；
同样的，他不爱你的时候也没有办法假装爱你。当一个人不爱你要离开你，你要问自己还爱不爱他，如果你也不爱他了，千万别为了可怜的自尊而不肯离开；
如果你还爱他，你应该会希望他过得幸福快乐，希望他跟真正爱的人在一起，绝不会阻止，你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已经不爱他了，而如果你不爱他，你又有什么资格指责他变心呢？
爱不是占有，你喜欢月亮，不可能把月亮拿下来放在脸盆里，但月亮的光芒仍可照进你的房间。换句话说，你爱一个人，也可以用另一种方式拥有，让爱人成为生命里的永恒回忆，
如果你真爱一个人，就要爱他原来的样子—爱他的好，也爱他的坏：爱他的优点，也爱他的缺点，绝不能因为爱他，就希望他变成自己所希望的样子，万一变不成就不爱他了。真正爱一个人是无法说出原因的，
你只知道无论何时何地、心情好坏，你都希望这个人陪著你；真正的感情是两人能在最艰苦中相守，也就是没有丝毫要求。毕竟，感情必须付出，而不是只想获得；
分开是一种必然的考验，如果你们感情不够稳固，只好认输，真爱是不会变成怨恨的。两人在谈情说爱的时候，最喜欢叫对方发誓，许下承诺我们为什么要对方发誓，就是因为我们不相信对方，我们根本不相信情人，而这些山盟海誓又很不切实际：
海枯石烂、地老天荒，都不能改变我对你的爱! 明知道海不会枯、石不会烂、地不会老、天不会荒；就算会，也活不到那时候。
许下诺言的时候千万注意，不要许下可以实现的诺言，最好是承诺做不到的事，反正做不到的，随便说说也不要紧，请记住：”不可能实现的诺言最动人”
在爱情里，说的是一套，做的是另一套；
讲的人不相信，听的人也不相信。你呢？找到了第几个？茫茫人海中，你遇见了谁？谁又遇见了你